my chaos theory

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When I think of exams, I somehow end up thinking of the future and I realise I'm quite scared of the outside world. I'm so happy being a student now. You can go for class whenever you want to, there's no fixed routine about things. You have long extended school breaks to have loads of fun with. School is like a big party to go and hang out with all your friends, Other than exams, it really is a good life being a student! Oh how I dread the daunting task of working life. There's the uncertainty of job security, office politics, stress, long hours, ROUTINES. And worse of all, getting bonded to a job you despise. Before you know it, you'll be going through a midlife crisis, miserable and lonely. OH! How I wish school never ends!
There's still so many things I wanna do before I strap myself to the ball & chain.


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Stop and stare

In a sort of bittersweet way,
I can finally say
ITS TOO LATE TO APOLOGISE (insincerely)!
At least I got to accomplish one resolution man,
I got to feel the words! hah, It feels good.

I feel free which means I made the right choices.
I don't have to bother about ppl talking about me
or interrogating me for details.
or those who wanna claim 'their boys' for their own.
TAKE THEM. THEIR YOURS.
I don't need people who can't be there for me
or don't make the effort to spend time with me.

The main reason is because you don't WANT to.

You're entitled to your own opinion. I'm fine with that.
I can't make you do smth you don't want to.
So it looks like it's back to my non-scandalous life
of friends, family, love and God.
Now, that doesn't sound so bad does it.

I never wanna complain about being single again.
Pls SLAP me if I do, but only if you're my friend.
HAHA,
I have a feeling today's gonna feel like a good day
With Balwant and POA!
(woot, that rhymed)

I <3 BB!

Also, A smelly lil' lump of poo suggested that I hold my bday at HOOTERS.
The Idea seems to be growing on me.
How hilarious.

Xiao Mao seriously made my day today man!
I can barely stand up straight now. My tummy hurts from eating too much and then laughing too much.
It's been a long long day, I can't believe I could take a bus home!
It felt like 1am when it was only 11pm!
I officially don't wanna think about, touch or see anything related to tennis for awhile.
But It's still been a funny day of private jokes like suxy and duce!

But seriously the weather's been making me all emo.
The rain and the cold chilly air with apologize playing the background has been calling out to my emo side all day long!
Even after talk of circles, I still came home and felt the need to rhyme!
 I feel like Lionel!
I should join him in his little cave in SengKang.

( before its too late to apologise.. )

 

Today my plan was to go for marketing class in the morning and then stay in school and study till dinner time.
Instead, I went to bueno vista for my fav duck rice in the world then went to school and met jamie and kristen and gossiped all the way to ngee ann poly. Then played burnout with cheewengs psp until I almost used up all his battery power and then just sat around outside macro lecture. I should've gone for tues macro class man! It's the most happening lecture!! All the people there somehow look damn sporty and tanned. Then there's the people I know like wang, tim, leon, melvyn, chris, youqian. There's the people we gossip about like the f4 boys. And most imptly there's IVAN! hah, omg he's so cute even youqian wants to pick him up. I wanna crash whatever other macro lectures I have left for the year and sit with him. You never know, sparks could fly haha!

oh yes, then there were the guest appearances from people who kept walking over to our bench to sit and talk with hwee and me. chunyi officially thinks that my goal in life is to steal other lecture's break food (which is partially true). Then we planned to go to m'sia and/or bangkok with 3 packed MPV's so the "whole school can come". Apparently the cohort only consists of 21 people.  Also Joshua's a very lousy gossip pal. 

So after all that, I only read 2 pages of my poa notes while eating oreo doughnuts and messaging! And, as though I did alot of strenuous activity, I got so so sleepy so I headed home and fell dead asleep from 6pm till around midnight. So much for coming home just for dinner with the family. Now, I'm so wide awake and the worlds asleep so there's no one to keep me company except my papa smurf! oh yes, I brought my papa smurf stuffed toy to school today to celebrate the 50th anniversary of the smurfs today! Those blue bisexual creatures are 50! ahh.. they're so cute, So HAPPY SMURF DAY!

 

 

So Little Time, So many things to do!

I finally fell sick! I think I got the bestest Immune system la. Like everyone fell sick last week around tues/wed like that and it only hit me late late last night. Probably only because of my long hours labouring away to get ready for the christmas party where I lost all the feeling in my nose. People kept asking me to smell scented candles and pot pouri and I couldnt smell anything! Then eventually I couldnt hear properly also because my ears popped on and off like nobody's business so I couldnt hear myself talk. Either I was really loud or really soft. Like some old woman sia! And I had to MC with a MIC. Can u imagine? haha.

It must've been all the food I ate on fri too. At first, I was so sad cos I had no food at home when I woke up so I went to macs then church ppl called and I went down to help. There was SO SO much food there. I ate so much while helping to prepare the dinner. LIke there was onion rings and fish&chips, otah, nasi lemak, campbells soup, fries, samosa's, spring rolls and some vegie thing that I obviously didn't eat! BUT WHOA, was I not sad for about not having food anymore! So I gorged myself while decorating xmas cards and then met KC girls for prata! more oily food! Where I pretended to be part of KC for awhile. Quite embarrasing ppl they are.

Anyway. so my whole weekend was taken up with such things. I was supposed to go back to church this morning cos it's a camp and I'm supposed to still be there but I had some sky rocketing fever. I was stuck in dreamland all day. Like literally dreamland cos I had a different dream everytime I feel back asleep and I sorta still remember some of them.  I was cat-fighting with my sister for stealing my fav dress, then I was drifting in my carpark with a bunch of bubble-gum looking cars who kept banging into me like bumper cars (prob because I re-watched tokyo drift yday). There was another one where I was having a very odd christmas party where the venues kept changing from my house to the airport to some other country where it was snowing. All the time, everyone was partying while I was decorating. yeah, then there was a few others where I was just sitting and talking to friends but that may not have been a dream. oh well.

Back to real life,
 I've got many xmas cards to write; presents to buy; decorations to put up; decorations to buy; farewell, xmas and birthday parties to plan and attend; money to find to do all these things; classes to skip; funerals to attend.

I need to get my christmas mojo mood back esp after the funeral on tues, Even the party on saturday wasn't so hyped up cos everyone more or less had to be in a more sombre mood.

It's been an emo year, Hopefully christmas will be good and happy happy still!
9 more dayss.....